Hi.
This is an old blog of mine, from which I found a lot of texts written around 2016. Sometimes it is required to look back to understand how much you've achieved. I haven't opened blogger since 2017, and found three hidden blogs and each one had specific topic. I read through my texts and it was like reading an old diary. I have always had the need to be heard, and in that sense, blogging would be a good way for me to untangle the mess in my head.
You could say that I have way too much noise going on in my head. If I'd be ready to admit to myself, I would probably get tested and a medication for ADHD, but I am not. That would require for me to admit that the car accident I was in a few years ago, did change me a lot. I'm trying to survive my day-to-day life with a traumatic brain injury that I've learnt to live with.
My teacher knew me well before and after the accident, and they kept telling me that I should get tested for ADHD because the symptoms they saw in me were getting stronger after the accident. That teacher also knew how I tend to believe in strength of character rather than admitting myself that I've gotten "weaker".
School has always been easy for me and throughout the nine years of primary school, I didn't have to do homework and always did OK on tests. When I got to high school, learning wasn't that easy anymore but I had no studying skills. This task I'm doing like two, three weeks late, even though it has been on my to do -list this whole time. I just have a hard time starting the tasks but once I get to it, I do them well. It's just the starting that bugs me....
Anyone has similar feelings? Probably not about the accident and the TBI, but about admitting your own weaknesses to yourself?
And apparently I've had a habit of signing these posts by
Peace, love and unity
Juliana
